If Your Life Evolves Around Mine...

... then you need to find your own!  There are certain folks in my family that ask about when I am going to get married, have children, be dependent on another individual, blah, blah, blah, etc every time they see me.  Usually you think of these people as those who are in their 80s and sleep without their teeth at night.  WRONG!  This is a person who is four months younger than me.  My conclusion to her eagerness for me to marry is she is JEALOUS!  That's right, someone wants my "carefree" and single life after they got married at (somewhere around) 16 and had babies by time I was graduating college.  She must think all I do is party with all of my other single friends, only work between eight a.m. and five p.m., cuddle with my cat, and sleep a full eight hours a night.  I've got new for her: The grass is definitely not greener on this side.

I work all the time.  If it isn't for my full time job it is other random side jobs I do to try to lower my debt or be able to do something special.  Yes, I do hang out with my friends but once a week is usually not the minimum.  I cuddle with my cat but I also have to feed him and scoop his litter box.  When Luna got sick a couple weeks ago, I cried so hard.  I often lose sleep over things or stay up late working on things I can't complete while in the office.  I only get to see my boyfriend once a week and he lives about an hour away.  I'm sure you get what I'm trying to say.  I have my problems too.

I also have a problem with those that ask where my boyfriend is.  I'm sorry but the last time I checked there are no rings (note the plural) on my finger and no piece of paper saying we're married.  He's a grown man, he can be where he wants to be.  I don't need to know every detail of his life and he is more than capable of taking care of himself and the same is true for me.  Trust me, he takes very good care of me.  He can tell when I am not feeling well and knows when to just hold me and not say a word.

Trust me,  I want to get married and have babies one day but the time has to be right and according to God's plan.  This life is lived for God and He makes the ultimate decision.  There are things I could be asking them but I keep my mouth shut.  If and when I get engaged I thought about not telling some folks for a little while.  They've waited this long, they can wait a few more weeks. ;)

Worn. Out.

I am so glad that choral society is over.  I enjoy singing but I need a break and being out until 10 PM during the week is tiresome.  They are practicing for a 9/11 concert in September for a few weeks in May but I decided not to do that.  There are some things I don't think I can emotionally handle.  I am a sympathy crier.  If someone is crying near me, or even on television, I am soon right there with them crying my eyes out as if I am the one who's life is changing or was changed.

Speaking of crying, my boyfriend has earned an A++ in consoling me when I am upset.  I got upset the other night and he just wiped my tears and told me everything is going to be okay.  He would have held me if we weren't in the car going down the road.  That's all I ever need someone to do, not walk away or say: "Don't Cry" or "Please Don't".  Boys in the past never handled anything quite that well.  I am pretty certain he is a keeper.

Next week I get to once again visit the grand state of Pennsylvania for a wedding.  I am really excited and happy for the couple.  They are amazing together and I can't wait to see what they accomplish for God's Kingdom.  I have the perfect travel companion and I've been saving my pennies so that we can afford to drive up there and back.  So.... "West Philadelphia born and raised, on the playground is where I spent most of my days".  Yes!  You guessed it!  We will be in West Philly, home of Will Smith, and West Chester, home of Bam Margera.  We will most likely see the Liberty Bell and Independence Hall as well.

The Medical Industry Can Kiss My Butt!

Insurance stinks and now I am stuck with medical bills in an amount that is very discouraging.  I humbled myself to call and ask for financial aid from one of the medical providers to find I make only a few hundred dollars over their income limit based on an income that I don't even bring home.  "We can offer you a interest free payment plan.  Do you want me to set you up on that?" the lady said.  With tears streaming down my cheeks, I simply replied that is the only option.  I've told many people that the stitches in my thumb come to $712.00.  Come to find out, the physician has added to that number a striking $420.00.  This is a total of $1132.00 that my insurance only paid $70.80 due to the high deductible insurance plan, blah, blah, blah.  I was only there an hour!  I also have two other medical bills and not to mention the nearly $50 blood pressure medicine that I have not picked up because I can't afford it.  I just cut off my cable t.v. and down-graded my internet and even further I have asked my parents if they can help with my medicine.  I might not be seen out and about much anymore.  I am still going to PA in May for a wedding.  Nothing will hold me back from that!

Needless to say, United Healthcare and Moses Cone can kiss my butt!